i notice that i try to do things to be like my dad. i know that we have alot of things in common. i notice that i do what ever i can to see him for a few more seconds. i know now that he has his own life and i have mine. i know i have to move on because we will never be as close as i hoped. i just wished he felt  the same way and i wish he could have been here to beat me when i did wrong and congratulate me when i did right. but now itz a lil to late i raised myself i learned to deal with my own struggles i am my own man but i will never be complete because there is a void in my life and i hope some day my father tells me hes proud of me no matter what or who i become. i hope i complete his legacy for that is my dream destiny desire.

my dream s2000 with a 2jz-gte swap

i want teacup pomeranian

Is it worth a year of looking like a bitch. Is it worth not playing a sport for a year. Is it worth not getting a car. Is it worth not seeing my girl for a week. Is it worth not getting a job. Is it worth letting all your hard work for a term go like nothing.

you know sometime u just gotta walk away from a fight chuz itz just not worth it. some ppl talking about ouuu that nigga look like a bitch but to me itz like ouu that nigga got a brain i got respect for that nigga. Theres a saying the dumb do mindless thing while the intelligent do things for the day coming. So next time stop think your next move could be the worst.

Even tho i suck tennis is like a drug. I notice that every time im sad or mad or depressed and i go play tennis everything is ok. idk what it is the feel of a perfect serve is like standing next to the pope. If something ever happend to me and i could never play tennis idk i think i would throw a tantrum lmfao but one hobby that would beat tennis any day is anything jdm chuz jdm is life every thing i do is slide ways nothing beats the roar of a turbo nothing kills the sound of a blasting exost screaming wheels are like a symphony of the best musicians jdm a fuck

you kno sometimes in life your do things that you’ll regret so idk why ppl say i regret shit just move on and fix the problem but then there’s some things that will be there forever and it feels like it smacks you in the face every time there’s something that reminds you of the things that your regret. you kno sometimes your hurt by someone and it feels like there’s a ice blade in your chess ppl say that if they hurt u so bad then leave them but sometimes that person is someone that makes you happy so is it worth it to be happy every day to be hurting inside also. ppl say that true happiness come from within so your telling me that if your in a box by yourself you can be happy? bullshit! i believe that happiness comes from the one’s that love u but if u feel like no one loves you except the person that kills your hear and sole by simply looking at them but your also fell that when u see that person it like looking at and angel from the heaven’s heaven. so what does it take to have perfect feelings in this world? am i the only one that feels this way? whats the point of doing things if your full heart isn’t there? itz allmost like what drives me to live another day it to kill someone that created all this pain. but will i truly be at peace well have to wait and find out.